the previous post was a joke.
have you ever heard of the elephant in the room analogy?
I joined the marching band.
stressed me out for weeks prior.
the thing is, if it had been any other normal human being
they would have said, "Gee. that'd be cool if I were in the marching band. too bad I don't know how to play an instrument." and that would be the end of the story.
but. not for me.
I have no skill, but bucket loads of self confidence.
so I went for it.
the previous post listed reasons why I wanted to be there.
and the reasons I didn't want to quit.
I don't want to be a quitter.
I look at myself as a quitter. I feel like people look at me like a quitter.
I don't stick to anything.
and it hurts me.
so darlings, after a lot of talking about it.
and praying about it.
and more talking about it.
I quit the marching band.
please don't call me a quitter.
sometimes, quitting is better.
I have a feeling I won't have insomnia tonight.